Roaming in pastures
The tares of my pubic hairs
Izza woman now
Can we talk about grief ?? Random thought
In a few words, in the comment section, describe your most powerful description of grief
Examples below
HELP ME IM BURRIED IN GRIEF!
I swept grief in a nice neat pile and one day it busted out and assaulted me.
Grief doesn’t want you perusing it, it does what it wants when it wants
Grief isn’t just a neat wound you can dress, the healing is in living
Grief reminds us that we once loved
Grief pushed me into education
Grief- I suck at this kind of talk
Grief is cold Callous and matter of fact
Grief forces you to get a permission slip
Grief hides for a little while but there it goes again
Grief makes me feel like I’m floating unable to ground myself
Grief- I buried it, ohh but the roots are so deeply attached
I do not deserve to live in this pain
Sinister (Audio Poetry)
Wires Hang me from lines
Feeling my dysfunction
Misused like concubines
***
Movement sublimes and gesture persuade this tri-polar mind
While
A thesaurus of recordings memoirs and movies wait cynically for the right time
***
They all submit to my personalities
SHHHHHHHH
Whispers: They’re listening
Systematically
***
Waiting for the right time
Always skilled at entering occupied areas
In spite of danger signs
***
!PARANOID!
***
And church can’t sooth me
***
Secret missions scythe my mind and carve 666 in a pattern down my spine
Behind enemy lines
Camouflaged into the walls
Something dragged me aimlessly down haunted halls
Where faces plague me
Past images degrade me
And force me to repeatedly listen to Blue October
Hate me
***
My emotions betray me
Then my thoughts berate me
I go adrift and they sedate me
My instinct violate me
And sensations date rape me
***
Till I wonder to nowhere
And everywhere
And become wonder woman
Doing 100 on 71 South
Demons position curse word to my mouth
***
I live in this hell
This hell!
Critically tryna’ blink myself into a southern bell
***
God made me ugly so He could love me
And you can hate me
I despise ever being born
I’m constantly
And consistently
Begging God
To please relieve me of this thorn
Sinister (Poetry)
Wires Hang me from lines
Feeling my dysfunction
Misused like concubines
***
Movement sublimes and gesture persuade this tri-polar mind
While
A thesaurus of recordings memoirs and movies wait cynically for the right time
***
They all submit to my personalities
SHHHHHHHH
Whispers: They’re listening
Systematically
***
Waiting for the right time
Always skilled at entering occupied areas
In spite of danger signs
***
!PARANOID!
***
And church can’t sooth me
***
Secret missions scythe my mind and carve 666 in a pattern down my spine
Behind enemy lines
Camouflaged into the walls
Something dragged me aimlessly down haunted halls
Where faces plague me
Past images degrade me
And force me to repeatedly listen to Blue October
Hate me
***
My emotions betray me
Then my thoughts berate me
I go adrift and they sedate me
My instinct violate me
And sensations date rape me
***
Till I wonder to nowhere
And everywhere
And become wonder woman
Doing 100 on 71 South
Demons position curse word to my mouth
***
I live in this hell
This hell!
Critically tryna’ blink myself into a southern bell
***
God made me ugly so He could love me
And you can hate me
I despise ever being born
I’m constantly
And consistently
Begging God
To please relieve me of this thorn
No Deviation (Haiku)
Off to grandmamma house
The scenic route is tempting
No feeding the bears
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As I sat on the edge of my bed praying for redemption
I felt the knot in my gut spring up in my soul
My body went cold and the memories took control
And I asked God for forgiveness because only He knew what I did
And the people who did it…
I got rid of that thing because I knew it was his
And I hated him
The thing was a monster
I wanted it gone
I wanted it dead
But still so much a part of me
I did not want the world to see
What this man planted in me
I laid still frozen on my back
While I heard the chants from the windows
From murmurs priest and Catholic’s
Screaming
MURDERER!
As one single tear drop fell from my eye
And collided pass my ear and slid down my neck
And froze itself right there
Tickling my neck
But this was not funny
And I dare not even crack a smile
I laid frozen on my back as the chants got louder
I refuse to cry because that would have been an admission of
Of…
Of…
Of something I dare not admit with this tongue
The thing was a monster
I wanted it gone
I wanted it dead
But still so much a part of me
This thing that lived inside of me
Was haunting me
And I heard him whisper
You are beautiful, as he brushed my hair to the side
Every night at 3 o clock in the morning
And I was mourning for my innocents
That I lost a long time ago
Now I live with this thing
This thing
This monstrous thing!
I just knew I’d be free…
As I laid there flat on my back
Spread eagle
Waiting for this thing to exit my womb
I wanted to bury it,,,
Tie a chain to it
And throw it in the sea
OF THE FORGOTTEN
AND THE FORGIVEN
So it can never again resurface
I was praying to have not
One
Single
Memory
Of this event
But here
I lay
20 Years Later
Still
Flat on my back
REMEMBERING…
Rest (POETRY)
I AM IN MY FATHERS PRECIOUS HANDS!!
And I just happen to be part of his perfect plan
I’ve been taken to that holy place
But never forget me when you feel the breeze
It’s me kissing your face
GOD MAKES ALL THINGS GOOD
And If I could stay you all know that I would
But he’s been calling me home for some time
And it feels awfully strange
Leaving so many loved ones behind
I want you all to know I’m in an AMAZING place
I’ve left you all with memories that can never be erased
Don’t worry I am fine
I’ve lived my life
And it was just my time
Life is as it should be
Cancer was the excuse but the truth is…
Jesus needed me!
We’re born to die
To live
And I gave life all I had to give
I am finally home
I see familiar faces so don’t worry I’m not alone
Please understand
I AM AT PEACE
Grieve me and dream of me in your sleep
And I promise you will remember when you awake
And all of you being here today
I want you to know this is no mistake
God is in the midst of it all
My name was in that book and I answered to His call
Smell me while you drive
Feel me in your hearts
Hear me in your children’s voices
Remember me but please don’t cry
Because I AM REJOICING with the lord
NEONS!!!!
Far beyond the sky!
HEAVEN!!!!!!
Notice me when the sun shines
When the light flickers
When my favorite song comes on
Feel me when the air is so still
And don’t second guess if I’m there
KNOW THAT I AM!!!!!
Because
I WILL ALWAYS
AND FOREVER!
Live in your hearts...
I got a Secret…Author Unknown
My mother used to tell me I would go to kindergarten sucking my thumb
And I did
My mother used to tell me I would go into Jr. high school sucking my thumb
And I did
My mother told me I would go to high school sucking my thumb
And I did
My mother always told me I would go to college sucking my thumb
And I did
My mother told me I would be a senior citizen sucking my thumb
And I was
My mother told me I would die sucking my thumb
And I did
CREEPY HUGS – POETRY
I’m crying out to you
So please just love me
I’m obsessed with wanting to be loved
Like the mountain by the mist
Held by the vista and its foggy kiss
Even God loves the earth that’s not even worth the land it occupies
Dead lies of false love
Creepy Hug
And the pull that strains my brain
Hard to obtain compassion for this game
I’m sad by this lonely that runs thru these hollow veins
This lonely makes me crave cocaine
Can’t deal
Don’t want to deal with what was
Remembering those Creepy Hugs
He made me feel like I was in dream
With a lot of gentle
Mixed with a just enough mean
He touched me softly
And my nibbles arose
He even asked me if he could suck my toes
He was nothing like the last man I choose
He sucked on my nibbles
Like cherries to the seed
I was hungry for this ocean in me to be freed
I rolled over, trying to shift my weight
I wasn’t sure if I was dreaming
It felt like I was in some kind of dream state
He kissed my neck
And he made me moan
He looked in my eyes
Challenging my sensual tone
I tried to get up but he pinned me down
And all I heard was nasty, wet slurping sounds
He had me wet and paralyzed to the bed
His face disappeared and all I saw was his head
Finally he came up for air and kissed me on my face
I pulled him closer because I wanted to taste
And I licked his face leaving non of me to waste
I laid back screaming
Because his tongue felt so good
I really wanted to cum
I really felt like I could
He said
You better not cum
But every emotion in me won
When he went back down
And I began to scream
And I was pissed off when the flight attendant woke me
Realizing
It was only
Just
A dream
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