REMEMBERING (POETRY W/AUDIO)

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As I sat on the edge of my bed praying for redemption

I felt the knot in my gut spring up in my soul

My body went cold and the memories took control

And I asked God for forgiveness because only he knew what I did

And the people who did it…

I got rid of that thing because I knew it was his

And I hated him

The thing was a monster

I wanted it gone

I wanted it dead

But still so much a part of me

I did not want the world to see

What this man planted in me

I laid still frozen on my back

While I heard the chants from the windows

From murmurs priest and Catholic’s

Screaming

MURDERER!

As one single tear drop fell from my eye

And collided pass my ear and slid down my neck

And froze itself right their

Tickling my neck   

But this was not funny

And I dare not even crack a smile

I laid frozen on my back as the chants got louder

I refuse to cry because that would have been an admission of

Of…

Of…

Of something I dare not admit with this tongue

The thing was a monster

I wanted it gone

I wanted it dead

But still so much a part of me

This thing that lived inside of me

Was haunting me

And I heard him whisper

You are beautiful, as he brushed my hair to the side

Every night at 3 o clock in the morning

And I was mourning for my innocents

That I lost a long time ago

Now I live with this thing

This thing

This monstrous thing!

 

I just knew I’d be free…

As I laid there flat on my back

Spread eagle

Waiting for this thing to exit my womb

I wanted to bury it,,,

Tie a chain to it

And throw it in the sea

OF THE FORGOTTEN

AND THE FORGIVEN

So it can never again resurface

I was praying to have not

One

Single

Memory

Of this event

But here

I lay

20 Years Later

Still

Flat on my back

REMEMBERING…

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  1. Wow, that touches a chord in me. There was a young girl, many years ago, who had an abortion and wasn’t able later to have a child. I don’t think she has ever completely forgiven herself. I hope one day she will. Killer ending!

  2. Powerful poem! I think everyone has at least one secret that only God knows. And He is the One who is always able and willing to forgive even when we struggle to forgive ourselves.
    Blessings ~ Wendy

  3. Wow. Absolutely beautiful. I feel like you ripped your heart out for me to witness. It takes guts to get these words out and onto paper. Very intense. Thank you. 💜 So much emotion.

    1. “I feel like you ripped your heart out for me to witness.”
      Yessss, this one took me for an emotional ride! Thank you for writing and reading me. Please don’t stop venting on paper!

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