Author: mentalnotes1

LOTS OF THINGS HAPPEN HERE SO PLEASE BEWARE, THIS BLOG COMES WITH CAUTION SIGNS. OH AND SORRY BUT THIS IS AN AWARD FREE ZONE (: WE ARE ALL WINNERS (: I THANK YOU ALL, AND WELCOME YOU TO MY PEACEFUL INSANITY. (: "LaToya"

Love ( V-day Poetry)

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I was standing somewhere between yes and no
Heart being transplanted
Please stop
But dont go
Stars moved me past my defeat
My emotions betrayed me
Facial expressions much less than descreet
Some energy transfered me to the moon
The sun
The rain
The storms
Flowed tunnels
Without my permission
The universe needed recognition for this violation of trust
That made me form this heart beat
That laid patterns down my spine
And laughs joyously
Because I am yours
And you are mine

And as the years grow old

We become one

Just as the universe has designed

Written for my husband, he stole my heart! đź’“ 2018 V-day I love you Charles

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Dis-Order (Poetry)

I eat to make the pain fade today
And the dragon in my belly
Plays monstrous villains
Till all my emotional scares fade away
You’ll never understand why I eat the way I do
Don’t try and diagnose me
Because I will eat you away too
I will vomit till my face turns blue
Tryna’ forget that I hate you
And that I hate myself too

DIS-ORDER

Fingertips

Darkness has ripped a broken grip

Damp

The smell of tears the familiar fragrance

They dripped

Softness filled the air

Scared

I felt death in this unseen glair

The scent of pain scaled the room and left marks on walls trails bad trip mushrooms

And she blooms to blossom a radiance that only I can smell

And she scales a lingering musk that only she can smell

Searching through darkness for 22 years, I feel the sun only through my ears

Patterns unimagined, heart beating through me and so I feel life

Through my fingertips

Death

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I have gone for miles trying to catch your breathe
Lost left me
Lay death upon my chest
Trying to catch the demon that rolls rust
Timely
Unrest
And a phantoms tale swags
and it drags
and it drags
my face sags
And it sags and I’m sad
Because death waits for me

 

Nauseous (Poetry)

Nauseous from all the sour men I’ve eaten

Understanding my belly more because of them it’s deepened

Watching others cope by cutting while I watch the blood seeping

Tired from this nod spend all my time sleeping

I’ve been confused, panicked and afflicted

Poor me another so I become estranged and addicted

Lady Sings the Blues was my song

Tryna’ wait on God but He seems to take too long

Dancing would have been nice if it wouldn’t have sickend my brain

Spirituality gone wild need a lion trainer to tame

Moonless nights and sunless days

So she plays

And she played

And he paid

Running from her Shadow Knights turning into days

And he stays

Then he strays

So she prays

An evil trick left me sick nervous click felt time tick

Took me days and days till Dawn the universe spinning there’s no Harmony lost in my yawn

Daydreaming

And so I wait

For the universe to deal me a better hand