Everything means something
When you’re thrusting through my mind
But what you mean to me
Can’t be defined by nothing
Even with everything meaning something
Anything is never better than nothing
And so I ‘m trusting you
Bondage
He is
Dead in my womb
Bruised spirit
Other men can hear it
I-am-bonded-to-you
I can feel the disgrace
Painted on my face
Calvin Klein suite case
In-my-soul
And so
I must!
Pray to something way, far
Up in the sky
To help me
Break
This soul tie
My tear drops become a puddle
A puddle becomes a river
A river becomes an ocean
An ocean becomes emotion
Until I am at the bottom of the sea
***
Quietly
***
Speaking to the spirits
While crying
Crocodile Tears
Dark skies encompass my heart
Because for a brief moment we were just centimeters apart
And she held on tightly to my gentle parts
That float
In limbo
Somewhere eon’s out in the hemisphere
I want her gone
The sickening truth is
She is part of my scares
And she will always live here
https://soundcloud.com/mentalnotes-1/calamity-poetry
I failed to see his logic
As he sang to me notes of anarchy and tragedy
I believed in this bittersweet fantasy that danced with me
And romanced me into submission
And I was wishin’ upon a star
That was light years to far
From my reality
I needed lanced and drained
To keep my nostrils free from cocaine
His presentation was a little blan
As we walked together holding hands in the sand
I heard him laugh and talk about our night together
And my heart went cold when he said
She was better
It was a high note I wrote
As I remembered the bomb in me that was ticking
I had hate to the deep of my blood and the taste was sickening
I was desperate for some pharmaceuticals to get me through my thoughts
I thought I was the seducer but I was the one who was caught
I needed a bible verse, jesus, church
Or a witches curse to rid me of this
Of this
Calamity
My Midnight – Poe-Estory
Needing validation from some man
Any man
Wanting to be someone’s biggest fan
While my mind ran wild
Reminiscing about the boys I was attracted to as a child
The excitement that ran thru me was too intense to describe
There was this one particular guy that gave me this awfully strange vibe
And yes!
I was wide open for him
With his big back and size 9 brown Tim’s
He said, with his dark juicy lips
I stood there with attitude with my hands on my hips
He said
“girl you so pretty I just had to let you know, can I take you to dinner or maybe a show”
I was mesmerized by his smooth dark skin
My defenses wanted to say no but I knew the softness in me would win
I went home nervous and filled with fear
My heart wouldn’t stop pounding and on top of that I had absolutely nothing to wear
There was a war going on in my mind that my heart wasn’t trying hear
I decided to call him and tell him I couldn’t go
He picked up the phone, I guess caller ID and said, please don’t tell me no
I was in a panic could this really be
Could this handsome man really like me
We went to dinner and of course a show
I wasn’t sure what to expect I really didn’t know
I stared at him gently and thought
I don’t know how anyone can tell this man no
Women they stopped and stared
I cut my eyes at those broads like don’t even dare
This man was handsome and OH SO FINE
And just for tonight Mr. Chocolate was all mine
The men they whispered
“Dame she’s a dime”
He tipped the waiter and said
“Bring us the finest wine”
The restaurant was nice and yes full of talk
I got up and excused myself with my oh so sexy walk
The men they eyed and said dame who is she
My midknight turned around and said.
“Oh she’s with me”
We laughed and talked and got to know what each other liked
I was so nervous ‘cause everything felt so right
Meanwhile I was filled with fear
The night was almost over and I was really, really scared
Was he like the others would he try to get me in his bed
He looked at me, said goodnight, and kissed my hand instead
That was really different, that I couldn’t take
All thru the night my thoughts I would awake
This man had me shook with his manly ways and his oh so serious look
There came a day he said
“We need to talk seriously”
That was the day I said yes and became his wife to be
Remember in the beginning when I was tempted to say no
Well it’s been 55 years and I’m glad he made me go
Imagine 55 years with just one man
I’m proud to say he still loves me and I’m still his biggest fan
Excerpt: Beyond the dry grass By Seanbidd ( Feature Poet)
The music’s still playing as her feet walk out to the sea,
At the fringe of a life time, as her lips whisper to the breeze,
Does the world turn this calm, or’s it the slow rush of the sea,
Follow me out here, follow me deep
JILTED DREAM (POETRY)
Ain’t no fun when the duck got the gun
Like Lauryn Hill said
“You might win some but you just lost one”
Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
I pray your pain is continuous
I want my wrath to be verminous
Nobody wins in this
Yea, I’m taking you on this tragic ride
I wanted to tie you up
Drag you to the Susquehanna River and drown you
But God may have gotten clever and baptized you
And I want you on the other side
My pain will never subside
You a damn lie
Always complaining about how hard you tried
And now I’m running
You pissed me off
Played me for soft now look what it cost
You better pray that your soul ain’t lost
I know you feeling cold
And it would give me great pleasure to watch your body mold
Yea your girl is cold
You wound me up tight
Caught you off guard no way to prepare for this fight
No recess or resets, we ain’t on set
Should have known you was no good the moment we met
Too late for apologies ‘cause you’re dead to me
The red looks good to me
You done released the CRAZY in me
I got your wife tied up in the basement just so she can look at me
Y’all took too much from me
I had to kill both of you and it’s destroying me
But I wake up and realize it wasn’t real
I’m too soft, and it just ain’t in me to kill
LOVE SO DEEP (POETRY)
How you so easily say you no longer love thee
And you no longer wish to be with me
All I do anymore is weep
As much as I try not to
I smell you in my sleep
The love we shared always ran so deep
Like Romeo and Juliet
OH, such sweet sorrow
Until we meet again tomorrow
In our case, tomorrow never came
For today and tomorrow shall forever stay the same
As wonderful as love should be
It’s our love that set us both free
Our spirits for no one person could tame
It’s our desperate love that should forever stay the same
For we shall prove our love was never in vain
There will always be the tale of you and I
We will swim with the heavens and kiss the sky
The stars are envious of you and I
And the souls below
It’s a mystery why we loved so desperately deep
There are many who can only weep
For they will never experience love so deep
For we dared such delicate sin
You and I together souring with the wind
Love a thousand times over could never compare
To the love we so delicately shared
To defy this love I dare
Him and I no one could ever compare
So be careful next time love comes knocking at your door
It will take your heart and so much more
And if you’re not willing to give it away
Then I’m warning you to stay out of love’s way
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