I Searched for You ~ Poetry

I’ve searched for stones
Limping from broken bones
I laid bare searching for something so rare
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I stood on peaks vista’s and mountains 
I lowered myself in valleys
I bathed in historical mystical fountains
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Searching for you
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I walked dangerous terrain
I kept going even while searching with a broken brain
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I roamed from day till dusk
This was not about lust
Much more about trust
I was in the muck and mire
Burning with desire
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I laid bare searching for something so rare
I honored the sabbath and respected your status
I mantra’d the lords prayer
I prayed while scared
I covered my hair
I lowered my eyes conscience of the devils glare
I searched and searched but the gods weren’t playing fair
I paced the valley of the kings searching for rings and pretty things
I made a declaration to a nation through meditation
I ignored sexual sensations
I refrained from masturbation
I nurtured generations
I promoted positive vibrations
I wrote away self-hatred and internal allegations
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While searching for you
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I laid bare searching for something so rare
I was overcome with despair
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I searched for stones
Limping from broken bones
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I was longing for belonging

I was

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Desperately
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Searching
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For you

Waiting for You – Poetry

Infected By Love- Poetry

These poems are all connected ❤

Waiting for You – Poetry

How long can I wait for you

To see the sun turn grey

Nights running into my days

Waiting for you

***

Eyes sealed tight
Holding on to a maybe or might 
Sending smoke signals hoping you’re alright 
***

I died

Waiting for you
***

To feel my heart beat cold

Pressure building from all the lies that you’ve told

And I wait

While this evil consumes me

Infected By Love- Poetry

I Searched for You ~ Poetry

These poems are all connected ❤

Infected By Love- Poetry

I sacrificed myself on the altar and begged God to give me back my soul 

I wondered this wilderness I was lost in the fold

I wrote pages and pages till it became a scroll
***

Love had games

Hung me by nooses and invisible chains 

I’ve become a walking noise maker from the residue that jingles in my hollow veins 

***

Love took its toll 

Felt lessons left mud prints in my fractured  soul 

Half of a heart does not make a whole 

***

Sadness compromised me times 3

Left miles and miles still cleaning up debris 

August was a long month felt like years 

Found myself floating on a life raft

Damn near drowned in my own tears 

***

Till life felt like a plague 

So I saged

And I saged 
I burned incense

It lingered 

But the hurt still stayed 

I was compromised and delayed 

Rigamortis set in and even the neighbors could smell the decay 

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I sacrificed myself on the altar and begged God to give me back my soul 

I wondered this wilderness I was lost in the fold

I wrote pages and pages till it became a scroll

I fasted I starved myself and I paced the floor some more

I talked to myself and searched for riddles beyond hidden doors
I spoke to the gods and whispered to the moon

I cried rivers and laid prostrate singing holy across empty tombs 

I bled myself trying to rid myself of this atrocity
I showed my self approved spewing with generosity

I walked on hot coals I detoxed myself I stopped eating meat

The congregation stood in line while I washed every members feet

I even cut my locs out

But I was still left 

Hung 

Heavy

Burdened

I was without 

I did all this trying to replenish my broken soul 

I will one day find a way out of this deep dark lonely hole 

I’ve been infected 

By 

Love

Waiting for You – Poetry

I Searched for You ~ Poetry

These poems are all connected ❤

Written 5/2014

mentalnotes1

Even robots cry

To dance through a metals wave

To bend iron cast down

Built ships through this junk filled maze

Awaiting rust

Standing still from yester years decay

Rainbows have rain

Rain has dirt

But robots have people 

Who feel nothing

Even when they hurt

 

Even robots cry

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The Playground – Poetry

Sandy plays here

Much to my chagrin

Her little pale white dress gets dirty

Perhaps if I were here long enough

I too

Would have allowed myself to get dirty

Wired – Poetry W/Audio

Wires Hang me from lines

Feeling my dysfunction

Misused like concubines
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Movement sublimes and gesture persuade this tri-polar mind
While

A thesaurus of recordings memoirs and movies wait cynically for the right time
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They all submit to my personalities
SHHHHHHHH
They’re listening
Systematically
***
Waiting for transistors to align

Always skilled at entering occupied areas

In spite of danger signs
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!PARANOID!
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And church can’t sooth me
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Secret missions scythe my mind and carve 666 in a pattern down my spine

Behind enemy lines

Camouflaged into the walls

Something dragged me aimlessly down haunted halls

Where faces plague me
Past images degrade me

And force me to repeatedly listen to Blue October

Hate me
***

My emotions betray me
Then my thoughts berate me
I go adrift and they sedate me
And sensations date rape me
***

Till I wonder to nowhere

And everywhere

And become wonder woman

Doing 100 on 71 South

Demons position curse word to my mouth
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I live in this hell
This hell!

Critically tryna’ blink myself into a southern bell
***

God made me ugly so He could love me

And you can hate me

I despise ever being born

I’m constantly
And consistently

Begging God

To please relieve me of this thorn

!Paranoid!

Release me from this mind carved storm

Edited 1/7/2014
Edited 4/9/2019
Edited 3/16/2023

Edited 1/7/2014
Edited 4/9/2019
Edited 3/16/2023

Together Part 7 – Poetry

So we meet
Somewhere between the icy glaciers
Tidal waves
Cutting rocks beneath our feet
Was a sweet rendition
We were left with this condition
Called love
Movement was nil
Heaven was still
And the earth timed out
And still
There was
You
And me

***
!Together!

Together Part 1 – Poetry W/Audio

Together Part 2 – Poetry W/Audio

Together Part 3 – Poetry W/Audio

Together Part 4 – Poetry W/Audio

Together Part 5 – Poetry W/Audio

Together Part 6 – Poetry

These poems were actually part of a never ending word play in 2013. The 7 parts are my comments, the writer I was writing with has some pretty great responses also and can be viewed at the link below. I am always looking for ways to keep this blog alive and what better way than to dig up archives from 2013!

Together – Never ending word play/ Comment section by this writer and Sean

Together Part 6 – Poetry

Wandering this vast place
I’m not lost
But
I really miss you
The way your lips feel on my face
Was church good today?
I know pastor really preached the word
I miss seeing him too
Afghanistan has trouble ya’ know
I thought I’d be out of here by now
President Bush said so a coupla’ months ago
I hope it’s true
Tell Jordan mommy will be home real soon
But no matter what happens
It will always be
Me
You
And Jordan

***
!Together!

Together Part 1 – Poetry W/Audio

Together Part 2 – Poetry W/Audio

Together Part 3 – Poetry W/Audio

Together Part 4 – Poetry W/Audio

Together Part 5 – Poetry W/Audio

Together Part 7 – Poetry

These poems were actually part of a never ending word play in 2013. The 7 parts are my comments, the writer I was writing with has some pretty great responses also and can be viewed at the link below. I am always looking for ways to keep this blog alive and what better way than to dig up archives from 2013!

Together – Never ending word play/ Comment section by this writer and Sean

Together Part 5 – Poetry W/Audio

Love built bricks on her relic
fragments so old it was hard to sell it
It was the twisted lip
That was hard to the kiss
Waist at a dip with hands on her hips
Balled up fist
Neck at a twist
Humming
MMMMHHHHMMM
”Cuz can’t trust no missta nice guy”
She walked this maze
Broken into forever’s daze
It seemed like her
And bitter
Would live

Forever

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!Together!

Together Part 1 – Poetry W/Audio

Together Part 2 – Poetry W/Audio

Together Part 3 – Poetry W/Audio

Together Part 4 – Poetry W/Audio

Together Part 6 – Poetry

Together Part 7 – Poetry

These poems were actually part of a never ending word play in 2013. The 7 parts are my comments, the writer I was writing with has some pretty great responses also and can be viewed at the link below. I am always looking for ways to keep this blog alive and what better way than to dig up archives from 2013!

Together – Never ending word play/ Comment section by this writer and Sean

Together Part 4 – Poetry W/Audio

You have transformed me into moments of raindrops
Sunrays from roof tops
When I was closed you opened my blinds
Led me to the light
You let in the sunshine
That had a keen fragrance of the rain
You soldiered lilies and butterflies that laid eggs on my windowpane
And slayed every dragon that dared creep into my brain
You squeezed oil from my rot
And brought meaning and love to every painful spot
We hugged each other like microphones
You made musical sounds to every agonizing groan
It was music only you could read
I love you so much I get butterflies and it becomes hard to breathe
And so
It will always be
Me
And you

***
!Together!

Together Part 1 – Poetry W/Audio

Together Part 2 – Poetry W/Audio

Together Part 3 – Poetry W/Audio

Together Part 5 – Poetry W/Audio

Together Part 6 – Poetry

Together Part 7 – Poetry

These poems were actually part of a never ending word play in 2013. The 7 parts are my comments, the writer I was writing with has some pretty great responses also and can be viewed at the link below. I am always looking for ways to keep this blog alive and what better way than to dig up archives from 2013!

Together – Never ending word play/ Comment section by this writer and Sean