Sometimes I can hear it

Your spirit

I feel it

When I peel you

Off of me

I fear you when you scale my soul

And antagonize me with your mind control

But I can’t tell anyone

No one but me and God knows

See, my tears drown me

And the thoughts surround me

The most profound artery

The heart

The best part of me

And a picture is still not worth a thousand words

Here I sit

Caged by this weapon

This lesson

This transgression

An invisible blessing

That awaits me after the rain

Cause we won’t sustain

Without a little pain

You would crucify me

If you could see

Thank God no one can ever know

But God and me

Only a fool continues to think about

What was

But worst of all

What could never be

And it hurts

That no one can know

But God and me

And his lesson has not fallen on deaf ears

So I am grateful that he was their

To catch my every tear

But it still hurts

That no one can ever know

But God and me

STOP looking in my mind

And taking me back in time

STOP takeing me to places

I never wished to go

STOP tryn’a make me fit

In your 3 dementional grit

STOP tryn’a make me bleed

STOP tryn’a make me see

Only pieces of what could be

STOP

Because the other pieces are with her

STOP TRYING TO HOLD ON

TO SOMETHING THAT WAS NEVER MEANT TO BE

STOP PRETENDING TO LOVE ME

STOP!

http://soundcloud.com/mentalnotes-1/if-i-could-be-anything-id-be-a

If I could be anything

I’d be a bird

I would chirp myself a love song

And anyone else who needed a tune

To heal our broken wing

I’d leave behind the world of words

That maliciously left me

 

If I could be anything

I’d be a bird

I’d chirp myself a new reality

And leave behind this human mentality

If I can be anything I’d be a bird

And at last

I’d be

FREE

FREE ME! (POETRY W/ AUDIO)

http://soundcloud.com/mentalnotes-1/free-me 

TAINTED BY THE BEAUTY OF THE AMARICAN FLAG  

A WARPED VISION

ITS DISGUISE

A RED, WHITE AND BLUE RAG

DEEP IN THE BYOU’S WERE THE BABIES MY GRANDMOMMA HAD

WHILE GRANDPOPPA LOOKED ON ANGRY, POWERLESS AND MAD

LAND OF THE FREE

YOU CANT FOOL ME

THIS RAG IS TAINTED WITH HYPOCRISY

RIVERS STILL TORTURED, DAMS STILL RED

AND SHE USE THAT SAME COLOR TO REPRESENT OUR FUTURE THAT’S STILL DEAD

CENTURIES

OLD HAG!!!!

I AINT GOT NO LOVE FOR THIS CLOTHE

SO F*** THE AMERICAN FLAG!

Please don’t come for me in the comments, it’s called creative freedom ❤

LOST GIRLS (INSERT FROM EPIGRAM)

http://soundcloud.com/mentalnotes-1/lost-girls-poetry#play

I kept getting these visions over and over again

She’s probably high, real hard to defend

It was during my worst days that I prayed

I was walking through life’s crazy maze

and in an alley way there my friend laid

This was bad news

I was lost and completely confused

And was living in a world of self-centered fools!

I’ve been asking God to send me a sign

Leave this place, right now’s the time

This is where I’m at

This moment is mine

Should I stay?

Or should I go?

Please someone help me ‘cause I don’t know!

All I know is where I’ve been, near death experiences and 100% sin

I’ll never forget how I let this disease win

When I think of the fire I’ve survived

I often wonder why I’m still alive

God has this major plan and I’m so excited cause I haven’t ran

My friend got killed by some crazy man

But I believe she was part of Gods perfect plan

Some have to die for others to live

And for that reason I promise to give all of me to recovery

I have one chance to make this right

And for that reason I promise to always walk in Gods eye sight

Wanna walk in my shoes?

I don’t think so

These are places no one should ever go

 

 

CONNECTED (KINDA EROTIC POETRY)

I AM CONNECTED TO YOU

SUBJECTED TO YOU

PROTECTED BY  YOU

I’M REFLECTING ON YOU

BLOOD LINKED TO YOU

CAPTIVE TO YOU

INFATUATED BY  YOU

SATURATED BY YOU

MELTED INTO YOU

CONFUSED BY YOU

BAHOOVED BY YOU

A PLATOON FOR YOU

A DARK MOON FOR YOU

I GROOM FOR YOU

AT HIGH NOON ME AND YOU

TRUE TO YOU

BLUE WHEN I’M NOT WITH YOU

MY BODY ACHES FOR YOU

MY NIBBLES PERTRUDE FOR YOU

I BACK THIS THING UP FOR YOU

SWRIL ON THAT THANG FOR YOU

TASTE EVERY INCH OF YOU

OPEN WIDE FOR YOU

DEFY THAT OCEANS TIDE FOR YOU

CRY FOR YOU

GET NAKED FOR YOU

MOAN REAL NASTY FOR YOU

TEARS DROPPING ON YOUR CHEST

WHILE I’M RIDING YOU

PENETRATE ME SO I CAN SCREAM FOR YOU

PLEASURE MYSELF WHILE I DO YOU

CAN’T SAY GOODBYE TO YOU

MY SOUL BLEEDS FOR YOU

MY BODY HAS A NEED FOR YOU

WANNA PLANT A SEED FOR YOU

GIVE ME A BABY SO IT CAN BE

ME

OUR CHILD

AND YOU

I WILL DO ANYTHING FOR YOU

DANCE FOR YOU

STARE IN YOUR EYES

LOOKING INTO YOU

THINKING OF YOU

ALWAYS TALKING ABOUT YOU

MEDITATEING ON YOU

I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU

FOREVER CONNECTED TO YOU

I MOVED THAT MOUNTAIN! (POETRY)

I MOVED THAT MOUNTAIN! (POETRY).

Mountain

Get

Out

Of

My

Way

My praise feels things

No man can ever see

I worship with him

Just God and me

You can’t see that mountain I moved

I moved it through grooves

Tombs

And empty rooms

Yup just me and God (:

And you weren’t there

When the signs said beware

And I entered anyway

God moved demons out of my way

Preparing me for another day

And the sun always shinned on my weary soul

While I picked away at this human hole

See you weren’t there

When he gently held me

And rocked me into submission

Cause I was fixin’ to die

And the years flew by

And tears flowed from my troubled eyes

And I lost a part of me every time I tried

But I moved that mountain!

But you were not their

It took a lot of trust

But in my heart I knew

That if I gave it to you

Only then could I be made new

See they were not there

When I walked in the valley of the shadows of death

Tempting all evil

See, I believed them when they said

I’ll never leave you

But they weren’t there

See my worship is real

The devil is mad that I sealed the deal

And I am sold out (: !!

See you weren’t there

When I begged god to take it

Cause I couldn’t shake it

And I was sure that if I lived to see another day

That I wouldn’t make it

See you were not there

I moved that mountain

But you weren’t their

When my life was plagued by fear

And I pushed every one away who tried to care

See you weren’t there

See I had a leak in my soul

And I needed to show this mountain

That

It

Did

Not

Move

Me

See I moved that mountain

But you were not their

 

 

SISTERS (POETRY)

 I pray before I start

Because these words are coming from the deepest part of my heart

I prayed for her like she prayed for me

That the light one day she’d be willing to see

Over the years she told me some of her deepest fears

And I know it”s ok to cry because these are happy tears

I’ve been on the sidelines rooting for her every day

I knew somehow God would help her to find her way

I know she had to fight the whole way through

I know because I’ve been there

I had to fight too

I’ve been some of the same places she’s been

And it hurt at times that I was unable to be her friend

There was some hurt that I was still trying to mend

My love for my sister is deep and true

But I’m still hurt and I’m still healing too

It really hurt to see addiction drag my sister into that hole

It doesn’t discriminate it takes family friends and  Foes

We should have listened when mamma told us to just say no

But my response was always the same…

Mamma I know

Anyway the hurt is still the same

She must have thought I was joking when I told her this was no game

She saw me struggle

Drugs riddled me to the core

And I am so grateful that God has the power to restore

I remember when she cried

She told me she was tired

She could no longer fight

I looked her in the eyes and said

I need you

And I need you on this night

I pleaded for her to stay just a little while more

But just as fast as she came she was back out the door

She looked towards the ground

Looked at me and said

I will be back when I get

ONE MORE

Her eyes were filled with pain

She didn’t want to be loved

She only wanted more cocaine

I pleaded with her to let me help her

She was my baby sister

I pulled her close and hugged and kissed her

And even in my own addiction

I really, really missed her

What I know is she is walking that same dark path

The disease will get you

And it will get you fast

My baby sister is all alone out there on the streets

I want for her so badly to be free

She is my baby sister and that’s all I am able to see

I’m often reminded that the same God taking care of her

Is the same God that took such good care of me

My sister died of an overdose

God has set her free

And He’s still taking care of her

And watching over me

FIX ME… (HAIKU)

MAKE ME OVER PLEASE

I GIVE IT ALL TO YOU LORD

FIX ME, RENEW ME