Hungry

Red wind

 Breeze

 Silencing storms

Hypersensitive

Addicted to these norms 

I struggle to comprehend what’s happening in my brain

Roaming the nights

Vampirism 

Pain  

It bit me and by morning I had fangs

I was thirsty and my eyes had felt the rain

My blood

It tells me so

Transformation

Fear

Moving slow 

Free

This thing had stolen the best parts of me

And turned me

Hungry

He made me feel like I was in dream

With a lot of gentle

Mixed with a just enough mean

He touched me softly

And my nibbles arose

He even asked me if he could suck my toes

He was nothing like the last man  I choose

He sucked on my nibbles

Like cherries to the seed

I was hungry for this ocean in me to be freed

I rolled over, trying to shift my weight

I wasn’t sure if I was dreaming

It felt like I was in some kind of dream state

He kissed my neck

And he made me moan

He looked in my eyes

Challenging my sensual tone

I tried to get up but he pinned me down

And all I heard was nasty, wet slurping sounds

He had me wet and paralyzed to the bed

His face disappeared and all I saw was his head

Finally he came up for air and kissed me on my face

I pulled him closer because I wanted to taste

And I licked his face leaving non of me to waste

I laid back screaming

Because his tongue felt so good

I really wanted to cum

I really felt like I could

He said

You better not cum

But every emotion in me won

When he went back down

And I began to scream

And I was pissed off when the flight attendant woke me

Realizing

It was only

Just

A dream

 

https://soundcloud.com/mentalnotes-1/calamity-poetry

I failed to see his logic

As he sang to me notes of anarchy and tragedy

I believed in this bittersweet fantasy that danced with me

And romanced me into submission

And I was wishin’ upon a star

That was light years to far

From my reality

I needed lanced and drained

To keep my nostrils free from cocaine

His presentation was a little blan

As we walked together holding hands in the sand

I heard him laugh and talk about our night together

And my heart went cold when he said

She was better

It was a high note I wrote

As I remembered the bomb in me that was ticking

I had hate to the deep of my blood and the taste was sickening

I was desperate for some pharmaceuticals to get me through my thoughts

I thought I was the seducer but I was the one who was caught

I needed a bible verse, jesus, church

Or a witches curse to rid me of this

Of this

Calamity

FALLACIES (30 DAYS OF HAIKUS) REPOST W/AUDIO

http://soundcloud.com/mentalnotes-1/fallacies-haiku

PIECES OF MY DREAMS

FALLACIES OVER TAKE ME

FREE ME FROM MY TRUTH

DECIEVED (POETRY W/AUDIO)

https://soundcloud.com/mentalnotes-1/deceived

Walking blindly into a deep abyss.

Vulnerable…

But still willing to take that fatal kiss.

DECEPTION…

The cover that loomed above.

Drowning in a fantasy of lies and forbidden love.

Smeared with deception so thick it couldn’t be cut.

Needing so desperately to close a door I was unable to shut.

My heart is so heavy and my belly won’t obey.

My mind says one thing, but the ache in my heart won’t go away.

This fantasy I created.

Oh, how I wish it were real.

But my anger won’t let me forget what this man tried so hard to steal.

Its only been a little while.

I was empty.

And so it didn’t take long.

Before my fantasy turned into that same tragic song.

Denial was the essence that enabled me not to see.

That this man was not my future or even part of my destiny.

DECEPTION mailed with a smile.

I could see it for miles but laid in my own denial.

Trails, tracks and footprints so many clues.

Can’t blame him cause I chose to play the fool.

Heart won’t stop pounding thru my chest.

Could be feeling worse thought I had mastered this mess.

Tired of feeling my own heartbeat!

Tired of listening to my own lies!

Though I know the truth I still lie in my own denial!

Got to force myself to eat!

Tossing and turning between my own sheets.

I finally ball myself up in a knot and cry myself to sleep.

Accepting complete defeat.

On my knees praying, crying and begging God for emotional freedom…

But still wanting so, so, so, so, so, so badly just to see him.

Just to kiss him.

Just to touch him.

Justa, justa what!!!!

Well if I knew I wouldn’t be writing so fucking much.

My thinking is so jilted its hard just to concentrate.

But I’m going to hold on and if I do eventually I will be back in a peaceful state.

I will get thru this and there will be another guy and hopefully I won’t have to tell the next one goodbye.

One more thing, I WILL NOT GET HIGH.

 

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