You say you tried while I cried

The guilt was eating you alive

Because it was me you deprived and still I rise

Baby, my guns were down even when you weren’t around

You wanted the streets more than you wanted me

And whenever you were around I had to beg and plead

It’s crazy because you knew my need

You watched my heart bleed and deprived me of my seed

I waited and waited but a sista’s got needs

Your mental crown turned upside down

 Every time you walked out that door

And I’d let you back like I was begging for more

Walking in our house smelling like a French whore

But you grabbed hold of me

Rough like I like it

 And I got excited

And it was hard to fight it

My passion for you always ran too deep

But you played me for cheap

 Thought we were playing for keeps

As much as I try not to

 I smell you when I sleep

I am done weeping

 And next time it’s my heart I’ll be keepin’

No matter how much damage you’ve done

It ain’t nevva stopped beatin’

 

 

 

THE WAY THEY WERE (POETRY W/ AUDIO)

I heard the desperation

In a voice that had been dry

Because he was denied

And it was her flesh that cried

He wanted her to see

The man he so desperately needed to be

A chain reaction

Turned into

A fraction

Multiplied

By love

 

But three doesn’t equal two

 

And chances are

Things will never be the same

Can she ever really change?

It’s his heart that’s been stained  

By her

And her

And her

And her

He just wishes

Things

Could

Go back

To

The way

They were

WHAT THE F*** IS THIS????? (POETRY REPOST W/AUDIO)

http://soundcloud.com/mentalnotes-1/audio-recording-on-saturday

 I DIDN’T MEAN TO GIVE MYSELF TO ANOTHER,,,OR DID I

HE STARTLED ME AS I TURNED AROUND, I HEARD THAT MANLY SOUND, THAT WAS HIM

I WAS CAUGHT OFF GAURD, WHEN HE SAID

WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS!!!

I DID NOT MEAN TO GIVE MYSELF TO ANOTHER, I TOLD MY HUSBAND, IT WAS ONLY A KISS

I STOOD THERE IN THE RAIN AS THE GEL FROM MY CURL SET RAN DOWN MY TEMPLE

I LOVE YOU, I SAID, AND AGAIN, HE SAID

WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS!!!!!!!!

I, I, I , AS I STUDDERED TO TRY AND FIND THE WORDS

MY MISTRESS STOOD THERE PLEADING WITH HER EYES FOR ME TO ACKNOWLEDGE HER

SHE WANTED ME TO SAY, THIS IS THE WOMAN IV’E BEEN SEEING EVERY DAY

BUT I STOOD THERE,,,BLANK

AS I WATCHED MY HUSBANDS HEART SINK INTO THE EARTH WITH THE RAIN

I WANTED TO REVERSE THIS PAIN

HE SAID, WITH MUCH MORE AUTHORITY

WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS, IF IT’ WAS ONLY A KISS, WHY IS SHE CRYING

I DIDN’T MEAN TO GIVE MYSELF TO ANOTHER

OR DID I

I STOOD THERE TRAPPED, BUT IF I WALKED AWAY NOW, I KNEW I’D MISS HER KISS

WE ALL JUST STOOD THERE

IN THE RAIN

AS I THOUGHT

WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS!!!!!!

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