I see you walking through my reality

Pushing me through the earth tryna’  make sense of the rain

My brain says stay asleep and your voice says something about me has changed

Scared to pass and yet so afraid to stay

This scar has taken my voice, my soul, everything I love and value away

The rip down my spine lets me know

I’m on the edge of heaven or hell

I can hear

Your voice

Awakens me

You awaken me

My harsh reality

Awakens me

That I am sleep to your touch

I want to wake up but

The drugs have me  heavily sedated and I’m sleeping too much

I’m slipping through this IV

Please heal my broken limbs

I’d do anything right now to be home

Comfortable

With my family

Instead I’m laying here

Half dead

Afraid

In this hospital bed

With a bleeding

On my brain

And I am powerless

I’m chasing you

To catch up to a memory

Where drums beat cartwheels through my heart

And love has trapped me in a pianos tune

We sip mushrooms

And plant seeds of hope

For all who doubt

That we are in love

And if loving you pass eternity isn’t enough

I will come back

In another life

And love you again

I’m chasing you

To catch up to a memory

Where drums beat cartwheels through my heart

And love has trapped me in a pianos tune

For all who doubt

That we are in love

I will come back

In another life

And love you again

For Halloween I want to be a morphine drip

To let the sun dry me up

And run healing through this broken cup

But there is no sun in October

And the weather is always better after the rain

The atmosphere is clearer

But the environment stays the same

 

For Halloween I want to be a morphine drip

And sip on tomorrow

And lend out me

And get back things people have barrowed

I want to empty this drip 

And let go of Eden that holds on to me with a death grip

The Garden of Eden was not a place

But an atmosphere

And things are not always as beautiful as they may appear

 

For Halloween I want to be a morphine drip

So I can crawl backwards through my veins

And nod sluggishly off into corrosion

Mixing this chemical with the rain

 

I want to be a morphine drip

To plunge into this open rip

Keep me filled to slow this painful trip

 

Drip into this wrought

And saturate every

Contaminated

Delusional

Unclean

Thought

 

Drip until you can only see the whites of my eyes

Please don’t touch me

Because everything that enters me dies

So keep me planted in this metaphoric drip

Because October will soon be gone

I’ve been drowning in a smile

Lie so false pedestrians can see it for miles 

And my heart refuses to sail a ship

Slanted smile across my lips

And an anchor loosely dangles in the curve of my hips

Lightning bolts springing from the bridge of my fingertips

And I mark the day for happiness

To drive a pathway

Thru my heart

 

The walk

He walks

We walk

As they watch

Feet hitting pavement

Feeling no breeze

And their shoulders

Feel the weight

Of

Death

The breeze sways to the rain
But my ankles still tattooed a lock to your chain
And I talk to myself
Cause wont nobody else listen

Translucent memories

Stained by this wrought

Mangled by

The thought

What I thought

About the thoughts

To taunt my brain

Memories unframed

Bringing light to this shame

‘Cause sensations know my name from past games

Mind calling self all kinds of dirty names

And feeling frail

You’re hard to read

Even from beyond this braille

A lover to my pin

I’m lost in this trap

Waking up

Only to begin the noise again

Sharpened words

And tails spin a web

That can never be untangled

An unspoken lie

Drowning

In

Lust

My love is

Deeper than an oceans wave 

To pave a twisters fall

Tides cave

And lovers wave

From beyond this epic crawl

Paradox hold shoulders

Under an oceans rock

And that’s why my love for you will always be

Deeper than any world

A fantasy can unlock

Deeper than an ocean

Happy Mothers Day ❤

I would wave goodbye with a thousand hands

Bypass beneath from a treasured land

Watching time

Lost

On seconds hand

Reasons are many

Words are none

The truth is heavy

They lie like dung

I would wave goodbye with a thousand hands

Just searching for one

But the truth has none

I would wave goodbye