Today I woke up
I was on top of the world
Last night I fell asleep and dreamt of Diamonds and Pearls
And children with lollypop swirls
Sometimes I don’t want to wake up
But I do
My thoughts always interrupt my sins
Mind over matter always wins
It sounds crazy and things seem hazy
But it’s funny cause…
Last night I dreamt of Diamonds and Pearls and little girls with cute little curls
The world seemed so small
When everyone else seems so tall
Towering over my faith
Small is where I’ve always felt safe
Life’s definition was confusion
Leaving room for the tall to come to their own conclusion
Last night I fell asleep on top of the world and dreamt of Diamonds and Pearls
It’s never amusing to the tall
The tall is clueless to this all
Wondering how the small has nine more lives than them
I was my only friend
One day the tall came to the small and ask
How can you live so foul?
I got angry like the animal I had become and growled
The small proceeded to say
It was one sunny day
I was walking
And I had forgotten to pray
The tall came to me in a rather suspicious way
My husband had just let me free
I was crying and couldn’t see
He started to sing
I will never forget the song
OLIVIA…
I was young and didn’t know
That in the song…
Olivia was a hoe
He was cute
He asked me why I was crying
I didn’t respond because emotions where flying
I wanted him to leave
But he stayed and introduced himself as Steve
He was nice
He had a few things
I guess I was enticed
He had on a grey shirt and brown tims
He walked away and asked me to follow him
He told me I could be happy all day
There was one catch he didn’t say
With my life I would have to pay
My heart was heavy that he could see
He asked me to go
And I agreed
That day I explored
Steve had made me his whore
Days and days went by winters soured
I remember when life was pure
Until one day I met this miracle cure
Steve was gone and my life had become a sadder song
Will the song still be playing when the music stop’s
Will the beat still beat when my heart drop’s
I realized what Steve had done
He was playing games and having fun
Steve had done me in for sure
Off to make some poor girl his whore
Dammit when it rains it pours
Now I’m hanging with robbers and thieves
I was far gone, way pass Steve
Tummy aches
Coughing up blood
And having dry heaves
Now I knew I needed help
I cried out…
JESUS PLEASE!!!
Relieve me of the bondage of self
Because the tall and the small knew I needed help
Last night I fell asleep on top of the world
And dreamt of Diamonds and Pearls
I’m looking at myself and people are crying
There doves in the air and their even crying
My grandmother is hovering over me
Please don’t cry nana I’m free
But of course she couldn’t hear me
It was too late
A voice whispered…
I GAVE YOU A CHANCE TO DETERMINE YOUR FATE!
I haven’t died I’m right here
My soul is shook up and I’m real scared
Am I really dead?
Why is everyone singing that sad song?
And why is my sister reading my favorite poem?
Today I woke up on top of the world
And dreamt of Diamonds and Pearl
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