Well bloggers, as some of you know I have some how shifted my writing from my past life of addiction to something very dark. My book Mental Notes http://www.amazon.com/Mental-Notes-ebook/dp/B005VX0WL8/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1353151329&sr=1-1&keywords=MENTAL+NOTES+BY+LATOYA+HARRIS was published last year and was my liberation. My mission was to expose this dirty disease called addiction and I think I did a great job at that. Then I got my heart broken while learning who I really am. What I mean is God was working on me and I interrupted His process and It brought up all sorts of issues from childhood. Things I thought I had buried a long time ago, rejection, abandonment, abuse, fear, fear of what, I don’t know. I got my heart broken this year and thus came this little girl I never realized I utilized so much https://mentalnotes1.wordpress.com/category/avatar-part-1/ I wrote her into my life and even named her My Avatar.
My first dark poem was “You will stay with me till the very end” https://mentalnotes1.wordpress.com/2012/07/24/you-will-stay-with-me-until-the-very-end/ This was the beginning of my heart break and this poem SCARED THE LIVING SHIT OUT OF ME! I asked myself, self, WTF IS THIS CRAZY SHIT YOU JUST WROTE, LOL talking to myself as I sometimes do (: So, I have been stuck on the dark side every since and I am desperate to find my way back to Something Beautiful.
This years life lesson has been life changing. I am still not certain how grateful I am for them because it was and still is very painful, but boy, oh boy did I get it this time, the lesson. This is my second time having to repeat this lesson, but I finally got it, life is that way.
So bloggers my mission is to write Something Beautiful and I will!
This is a challenge to self, Something Beautiful
Happy New Year, I wish you all the best of everything and I mean that!
THE BEST OF EVERYTHING, AND SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL ❤
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Isn’t it odd how we go through life ignoring that dark side to us until it finally catches up with us? I think that is what makes us stronger. We have to let that dark side present itself to fully grow. I wish you the best of luck with your endeavors. Winning out over the darkness is never the easiest thing to do.
Thank you Pammy for your comment and no it is not always easy. For me it takes deliberate effort but I am determined to write SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL even if it takes a life time (: Happy Holidays to you and your family and I hope your son is better and prayerfully you are back to work soon.
Some people repeat the same mistakes over and over and over, never realising the lessons that life/fate/god (whatever you believe, that ‘Other’ outside of ourselves) is trying to teach us. You have the wisdom to see it, call it, and learn. I wish you all the strength you need for your journey, the wisdom to see ‘Beyond Illusion’, and the capacity to carry on smiling.
Blessings be.
YES! THE JOURNEY SOMETIMES CAN BE BITTER SWEET BUT THE END RESULT IS ALWAYS SOMETHING VERY POWERFUL!
love it! thanks for sharing your thoughts and even your secrets.
YOU ARE WELCOME AND THANKS FOR COMMENTING. HAPPY HOLIDAYS ANONYMOUS (:
Oh, darling! Don’t fear the dark side, but don’t let it controls you. I wish you all the best and success in you journey.
THANK YOU (: AND I KINDA LIKE THE DARK SIDE AND MY DARK POETRY. ALTHOUGH MY WRITING DOESNT REFLECT WHO I AM. A FRIEND SAID TO ME LAST NIGHT. “COME ON NOW TOYA, WHATS THE SECRET, WHY YOU ALWAYS SO DARN HAPPY” I KNOW I HAVE A SPIRITUAL GLOW, I TOLD HIM, “IF I TOLD YOU WHAT MY LIFE USED TO BE LIKE, YOU’D UNDERSTAND. LIFE WILL NOT ALWAYS GIVE ME LEMONADE, WHICH I THINK IS PRETTY FUCKED UP BUT I KEEP MOVING ANYWAY BECAUSE LIKE YOU SAID ITS JUST A MINUTE OF DECAY (; http://morbidinsanity02.wordpress.com/2012/12/31/minute-of-decay/
I understand you!
And as you said: “a minute is not a lifetime.” 🙂
Ohhhh what a difference 12 years makes, I am so grateful for those lessons ❤