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Why give me this body that imprisons my soul?

I Rome this bruised space hiding from my own disgrace

That spills over in my world

That only knows me as a little girl

But I am a woman!

And I know because i have the scares to prove it

I have titts and ass like an hour glass

And puberty has been years passed

But I am still a little girl

 ):

And my avatar wants to leave because I won’t let her breathe

Smothering her with my fears of

Today …

Tomorrow…

And most of all yesterday

But she stays to play anyway

Realistic

Misogynistics

Can’t stand her because

She is protected

By her avatar

 

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JONAH ( A LONG RANDOM THOUGHT)

Let me start by saying I don’t have a religious bone in my body. Well, maybe one or two. I do consider myself a very spiritual woman on a continued search for greater insight. Neither am I a bible thumper. My grandmother used to read the book of Jonah to me all the time when I was a little girl. The bible story is just as real to me today as it was when I was a child. I have found myself in the belly of the beast more times than I wish to admit.

The story of Jonah and the whale intrigues me, I see myself as Jonah. So many times I have been disobedient to God when He gives me a direction. Sometimes I just flat out tell God no, as Jonah did. Jonah argued with God about going to the city of Nin-e-veh to warn the people to get their act together, that great city had become corrupt. Jonah tried to take a boat to another town, running as we sometimes do to escape ourselves. Jonah probably wouldn’t have gone to the city of Nin-e-veh had those people on the boat not thrown him off fearful for their own lives.

That’s the same way with association; we must be very careful who we associate ourselves with. The people on the boat knew bad things were happening to them through association with someone on that boat. Jonah was in the belly of the whale for three days and he was afraid. He prayed hard.

“Oh Lord, if you get me out of this whale I will go to Nin-e-veh and anywhere else you send me, I will go,”

Jonah pleaded. I often times find myself trying to make deals with God. Get me out of this situation and I will go to church every Sunday and give ten percent of my earnings. I still haven’t held up my end of the bargain, sadly, but God has.

Jonah fussed God out the entire way to the city of Nin-e-veh. Jonah did not want to go! Even after being spit out of the whale he was still fussing with God about having to go there. We can fuss God out if we want, He can handle our temper tantrums. Jonah was so angry he told God to take his life. God simply said very calmly, “it does you no good to be angry,” God is merciful, gracious and slow to anger.

God used Jonah to plant a seed in the people of Nin-e-veh’s hard heads. After Jonah warned them, the people in the city cried out to God. He promised to destroy the city but changed his mind. God gives us opportunities to repent, to make our wrongs right. He can turn a hopeless situation into something beautiful, He’s God

It doesn’t matter how bad we think we are God will send someone to help. Although Jonah was not obedient, he was stubborn and did what he wanted, God still used him. So don’t look at the messenger because God will use anything or anybody to save his sheep, he loves us (me.)

Jonah had been disobedient, got bum-rushed by the men on the boat. They tossed him over; he had been swallowed by a whale, in the belly of the beast for 3 days worrying if he would ever see the light of day. You all know how we get ourselves in situation and try and pray our way out at the last minute. The whale finally spit Jonah out where he washed up on the sea. He traveled to Nin-e-veh a three day hike on foot. Jonah was tired.

Jonah went through all that and still had to go to Nen-e-veh to warn the people. God knew Jonah needed a break and instantly grew him a tree for shade. God will not give us more than we can bear. Of course, after all Jonah had been through he went to sleep. When he awoke in the morning, it was hot as chicken grease outside and there was a sand storm. God sent a worm to destroy the tree he had given Jonah for shade. Jonah was so hot he fainted and started fussing God out again. (Jonah 4:9) Jonah said, “Just kill me, I will be angry with you as long as I want, till the day I die.”

This is a great story, a little mercy is better than no mercy at all. I fuss with God all the time, I am learning sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. When given a direction from the all mighty God, I better listen, before I find myself in the belly of the beast, again.

 

THE CHALLENGE,,,THANKS SAGEDOYLE (:

OK, SO IT WOULD SEEM LIKE A CHALLENGE AND IT WAS. THIS IS HOW THE WORLD WORKS, WE SEE OTHERS DO THINGS WE ONLY WISH WE COULD DO AND IT MOTIVATES US TO GETTER DONE (:  SO THANK YOU SAGE http://sagedoyle.wordpress.com/ FOR MEETING THE CHALLENGE HEAD ON. THERE WAS NO DOUBT IN MY MIND THAT YOU WOULD BE ONE OF THE FIRST TO GETTER DONE BECAUSE QUALITY BLOGGING IS WHAT YOU DO.  I WILL BE VEWWEY, VEWWEY CAREFUL THE NEXT TIME I CHALLENGE SOMEONES ELSE. THE MESSAGE FOR ME OUT OF ALL THIS IS I MUST BE WELL PREPARED TO DO WHAT I CHALLENGE OTHERS TO DO. SO HERE GOES…

THE CHALLENGE WAS TO WRITE A SHORT STORY OR POEM RECOGNIZING ALL MY AWARD WINNERS,,,HERE GOES

IF MY SOUL COULD SPEAK http://ifmysoulcouldspeak.wordpress.com/  IT WOULD SAY MANY THINGS THAT ONLY THE UNIVERSE COULD UNDERSTAND. SEE, I AM A YOMICFIT  http://yomicfit.wordpress.com/ SCATTERED WITH THE MISFITS WHO LIVE ON THE NIGHTSYDE http://thenightsyde.wordpress.com/. FLOATING ON HIGH TIDE AND TIE-DYE  WISHING THEY COULD BE RUNNING ON SOBER http://runningonsober.wordpress.com/ . AS THEY MAKE MENTAL NOTES https://mentalnotes1.wordpress.com/ http://mentalnotes2.wordpress.com/ WHILE SOMKING DOPE AND FANTISIZING ABOUT LOST DREAMS AND FORGOTTEN HOPE. FROZEN IN THERE OWN DREAM PARALYZED ON HIGH BEAMS, EYES HIGH BEAMED PARANOID FROM THE COCOA BEAN AND STILL WISHING THEY COULD BE RUNNING ON SOBER .http://runningonsober.wordpress.com/

SAGE DOYLE  http://sagedoyle.wordpress.com/SPOKE ABOUT GRIMM AND HIS WALL, WHO DOESN’T MIND THE FALL BECAUSE HE LIVES IN HIS OWN ISOLATED WORLD THAT HE HAS BOARDED UP WITH NICK KNACK AND TRINKETS AND A WALL THAT NOT EVEN EMMA CAN PUSH. LONLEY WALLS AND HALLS THAT WERE WINDOWS TO MY SOUL http://window2mysoul.wordpress.com/ KIND OF TOOK CONTROL AND NOW WALL IS HIS GRIMM THAT KEEPS PEOPLE AWAY FROM HIM. ISOLATED, MUTILATED, DESECRATED, HE IS THE WINDOW TO MY SOUL .http://window2mysoul.wordpress.com/

REVEREND HELL FIRE http://reverendhellfire.wordpress.com/KEEPS TALKING IN MY EAR ALL THIS f****** LYRICAL ANARCHY http://lyricalanarchy.wordpress.com/2012/10/27/saturday-poetry-sampler-2/ REDERIC, GIVING ME A F****** HEAD ACHE ABOUT JESUS AND THE DEVIL. I WILL LIVE OR I WILL BURN, LIKE DUST I CAME AND LIKE DUST I WILL RETURN. I THANK YOU IN ADVANCE FOR YOUR READING PLEASURES (: http://readinpleasure.wordpress.com/ THE TRUTH IS I’D LIKE TO SEE HEAVEN AND BE INPLANTED WITH PEARLY WHITE FEATHERS.

I JUST WANT TO LOVE LIFE AND MY POETRY http://lovelifeandpoetry.com/author/gloriathepoet/ , SO IT IS AND SO IT WILL BE. LIKE MISHABURNETT http://mishaburnett.wordpress.com/ SAYS “I FEEL LIKE I HAVE LOST  MY SENSE OF ME”. HE SAYS “I LOST MY SENSE OF WONDER” SO HE BLUNDERS IN THE DAY BUT IN THE DARK LOOKING FOR HIS OWN POETIC MAGIC http://poetmagic.wordpress.com/, AND WE ALL HAVE IT ,DON’T EVER LET IT GO BECAUSE THEN WE BEGIN TO BLUNDER AND START TO BELIEVE WE HAVE LOST CONTROL. I AM THE WINDOW TO MY SOUL http://window2mysoul.wordpress.com/ ONLY IF MY SOUL COULD SPEAK http://ifmysoulcouldspeak.wordpress.com/

TELL ME YOU LOVE ME (HAIKU)

WELL BLOGGERS I FELT THE NEED TO REPOST THIS BECAUSE I AM NOT FEELING THE LOVE! HE SAYS HE LOVES ME, HOWEVER HIS WORDS ARE EMPTY. I SWEAR I ALMOST WENT FLIP MODE THIS EVENING, BUT I HAVE COME TO FAR TO GO TO JAIL. I REALLY WANTED TO HURT THIS MAN, LOVE IS REALLY A VERY POWERFUL EMOTION,,,(LONG SIGH) WHERE IS MY KNIGHT IS SHINNING ARMER CAUSE HE AINT HIM!

 

I ALMOST FORGOT ABOUT THIS HAIKU, LOST IN THE ARCHIEVES, THANK YOU http://andro53.wordpress.com/ FOR YOUR COMMENT YOU MADE ME SMILE AND REMINDED ME HOW NICE IT IS TO FEEL APPRECIATED EVEN IF IT IS FOR A SIMPLE HAIKU.

At least the rain does

The words you do not say hurt

The sound is called love

PROLIFIC BLOGGER AWARD (:

THANKS http://morbidinsanity02.wordpress.com/ FOR THE NOMINATION (:

Ok, I am going to change the game up a little because I can’t imagine only choosing one blogger as the winner because I like so many.

Ok so here are the rules, just keep writing (: and if you get a chance and only if you get a chance not today or tommorow but maybe within the month.

Here are seven facts about myself  as asked by http://morbidinsanity02.wordpress.com/ she nominated me (:

1. I am a little wierd but very loving

2. I have diognosed myself Bipolar because I hate doctors

3. I am very moody and antisocial

4. I would give you the shirt off my back

5. I do my own pedicures

6. I am a recovering herion addict and I celebrated 2 years clean Sept. 24…YIPPIE (:

7. I AM A SUCKER FOR A SOB STORY!

You must write a poem or short story mentioning all the blogs I mentioned below (: have fun.

http://ifmysoulcouldspeak.wordpress.com/

http://yomicfit.wordpress.com/

http://poetmagic.wordpress.com/

http://sagedoyle.wordpress.com/

http://lovelifeandpoetry.com/author/gloriathepoet/

http://lyricalanarchy.wordpress.com/

http://thebrineylass.wordpress.com/

http://readinpleasure.wordpress.com/

http://http://mishaburnett.wordpress.com/

http://reverendhellfire.wordpress.com/

http://window2mysoul.wordpress.com/

http://thenightsyde.wordpress.com/

http://window2mysoul.wordpress.com/

http://runningonsober.wordpress.com/

http://mentalnotes2.wordpress.com/

I COULD REALLY GO ON AND ON BUT I HAVE BEEN COPYING AND PASTING FOR OVER AN HOUR AND MY ALARM CLOCK WILL BE BUZZING IN 5 HOURS. YOU ALL ARE WINNERS (:

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