SHE WILL NEVER WANT YOU
THE WAY YOU WANT HER TO
AND YOU WILL BE BROKEN
ONCE
AGAIN
BE
CAUSE
SHE
IS
TAINTED
TAINTED BY THE PAST
AND EVEN LOVE DONT LAST
FOOL OF ME!
AND NOW…
I WAIT
AND WAIT
I WAIT PATIENTLY
FOR YOUR SHADES OF GREY
CARRY ME (HAIKU)
THE PATH IS NARROW
BUT THE ROAD IS SWEET DON’T FRET
HE WILL CARRY ME
RANDOM THOUGHTS, IDEAS AND A FEW BLOGS I FOLLOW…
I ask myself the question, am I a blogger or a writer? The answer is simple, I am a diehard writer, It’s in my blood to write. I know without doubt that the universe has writing on my to do list. The dilemma is I don’t have time with school, work, my book “Lost Girls” I am typing up and down time, it gets real hard to post every day. I follow many, but never have time to read them all. There are so many blogs I like and I feel god awful bad when I can’t read all of the content in the blogs I follow. I apologize in advance but on my down time just know I am engulfed in this world of blogging. There are so many great stories and poems till I am overwhelmed with emotion from the realness of it all.
I’m not real sure which one of these women I follow gave me the bright idea to post date my writings, but I like them both, http://yomicfit.wordpress.com/, http://window2mysoul.wordpress.com/ . Under the publish button where it says publish immediately, you have the option to change the date to whenever you would like it to publish. I think that is awsome and it keeps your blog alive, I have post dated until October 9th, what a brilliant tool. Another one of my favorite faithful bloggers http://sagedoyle.wordpress.com/ who has a very strange but interesting character I follow named Wall Grimm, pointed out there are some really good poems lost in the archives.
Here are a few small tips to keep your blog or writings alive, incorporate pieces from the lost files and keep the people who follow happy.
You can turn pieces of your poetry into haikus’s and also sometimes I want to get right to the meat and potatoes of a story or poem line. I have incorporated inserts with some good parts of my epigrams or poetry so the reader can get a feel for the poem line. They can always go back and find it if they like the insert, although the insert alone will stand alone and turns into something a little differnt than the actual poem. That is always a good thing, to take a piece of something and turn it into something completley different.
I love to write and I get so excited to share with you all but I need to give the reader time to absorb the words. As a reader it gets hard to read it all , especially when there are so many post in a day. I may sit at my computer once a week and read the blogs I follow, in a week there are already numerous post. I am unable to catch up on them all, I’m sure I am not alone in feeling this way. What you all write is important to me so please keep the reader in mind. I think I might start posting every three days after these post I have post dated.
So I ask myself, who am I writing or blogging for, me or the followers? Well, a little of both, but I would like for the readers to absorb my post before I post again. I am learning that is how all my good writings got lost, in all my numerous post,,,,I am going to slow down before I get a ticket (:
Oh, and if you get a chance check out http://stuffisaid.wordpress.com/ very poetic and abstract writing with meaning, real life social issues and sublims (:
WILDERNESS (HAIKU)
HUNGRY SO HUNGRY
FOREST, TREES AND STARS ALIKE
WILDERNESS FREE ME
DANGER (POETRY INSERT)
His eyes weighed heavy on me like 500 hundred pound dumb bells
Hoping he couldn’t read into all my body language and what it could tell
Cause I was moved by his smooth
But was playing it cool
And was trying to keep to this first time rule
I really needed him to move from my side ways view
I was afraid he could see
The fear that lied in me
And smell the lust that rivaled in my mind
And made musical notes in a pattern down my spin
And he was poetry to my soul
From the top of my head to my pinky toe
I swear I felt him land
Dangling like candy above the palm of my hand
Because when I looked at him I saw nothing but man
And boy was I trying hard not to look
ONLY ME AND GOD KNOWS ( POETRY INSERT)
ONLY A FOOL CONTINUES TO THINK ABOUT
WHAT WAS
BUT WORST OF ALL
WHAT COULD NEVER BE
BUT BOY DOES IT HURT
THAT NO ONE CAN KNOW
BUT GOD AND ME
LOST GIRLS (INSERT FROM EPIGRAM)
http://soundcloud.com/mentalnotes-1/lost-girls-poetry#play
I kept getting these visions over and over again
She’s probably high, real hard to defend
It was during my worst days that I prayed
I was walking through life’s crazy maze
and in an alley way there my friend laid
This was bad news
I was lost and completely confused
And was living in a world of self-centered fools!
I’ve been asking God to send me a sign
Leave this place, right now’s the time
This is where I’m at
This moment is mine
Should I stay?
Or should I go?
Please someone help me ‘cause I don’t know!
All I know is where I’ve been, near death experiences and 100% sin
I’ll never forget how I let this disease win
When I think of the fire I’ve survived
I often wonder why I’m still alive
God has this major plan and I’m so excited cause I haven’t ran
My friend got killed by some crazy man
But I believe she was part of Gods perfect plan
Some have to die for others to live
And for that reason I promise to give all of me to recovery
I have one chance to make this right
And for that reason I promise to always walk in Gods eye sight
Wanna walk in my shoes?
I don’t think so
These are places no one should ever go
CONNECTED (KINDA EROTIC POETRY)
I AM CONNECTED TO YOU
SUBJECTED TO YOU
PROTECTED BY YOU
I’M REFLECTING ON YOU
BLOOD LINKED TO YOU
CAPTIVE TO YOU
INFATUATED BY YOU
SATURATED BY YOU
MELTED INTO YOU
CONFUSED BY YOU
BAHOOVED BY YOU
A PLATOON FOR YOU
A DARK MOON FOR YOU
I GROOM FOR YOU
AT HIGH NOON ME AND YOU
TRUE TO YOU
BLUE WHEN I’M NOT WITH YOU
MY BODY ACHES FOR YOU
MY NIBBLES PERTRUDE FOR YOU
I BACK THIS THING UP FOR YOU
SWRIL ON THAT THANG FOR YOU
TASTE EVERY INCH OF YOU
OPEN WIDE FOR YOU
DEFY THAT OCEANS TIDE FOR YOU
CRY FOR YOU
GET NAKED FOR YOU
MOAN REAL NASTY FOR YOU
TEARS DROPPING ON YOUR CHEST
WHILE I’M RIDING YOU
PENETRATE ME SO I CAN SCREAM FOR YOU
PLEASURE MYSELF WHILE I DO YOU
CAN’T SAY GOODBYE TO YOU
MY SOUL BLEEDS FOR YOU
MY BODY HAS A NEED FOR YOU
WANNA PLANT A SEED FOR YOU
GIVE ME A BABY SO IT CAN BE
ME
OUR CHILD
AND YOU
I WILL DO ANYTHING FOR YOU
DANCE FOR YOU
STARE IN YOUR EYES
LOOKING INTO YOU
THINKING OF YOU
ALWAYS TALKING ABOUT YOU
MEDITATEING ON YOU
I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU
FOREVER CONNECTED TO YOU
Mountain
Get
Out
Of
My
Way
My praise feels things
No man can ever see
I worship with him
Just God and me
You can’t see that mountain I moved
I moved it through grooves
Tombs
And empty rooms
Yup just me and God (:
And you weren’t there
When the signs said beware
And I entered anyway
God moved demons out of my way
Preparing me for another day
And the sun always shinned on my weary soul
While I picked away at this human hole
See you weren’t there
When he gently held me
And rocked me into submission
Cause I was fixin’ to die
And the years flew by
And tears flowed from my troubled eyes
And I lost a part of me every time I tried
But I moved that mountain!
But you were not their
It took a lot of trust
But in my heart I knew
That if I gave it to you
Only then could I be made new
See they were not there
When I walked in the valley of the shadows of death
Tempting all evil
See, I believed them when they said
I’ll never leave you
But they weren’t there
See my worship is real
The devil is mad that I sealed the deal
And I am sold out (: !!
See you weren’t there
When I begged god to take it
Cause I couldn’t shake it
And I was sure that if I lived to see another day
That I wouldn’t make it
See you were not there
I moved that mountain
But you weren’t their
When my life was plagued by fear
And I pushed every one away who tried to care
See you weren’t there
See I had a leak in my soul
And I needed to show this mountain
That
It
Did
Not
Move
Me
See I moved that mountain
But you were not their
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