VOICE (EPIGRAM REPOST W/AUDIO)

https://soundcloud.com/mentalnotes-1/voice

 

His name was Tommy and his spirit’s alive and well.

I hope you don’t mind it’s his story I shall tell.

He would be 37 but at the time he was 12.

And for many years his life was a living hell.

Well it’s his father he despised.

All his sneaky ways and dirty little lies.

His dad was strange in many different ways.

What Tommy didn’t know is his dad had full blown AIDS.

His dad was in denial; he wouldn’t take any meds.

Every night Tommy’s dad would cry then come lay in Tommy’s bed.

Tommy was 12, to him a man, he knew this wasn’t right.

He’d lay there quiet, he dare not fight.

He was 15 and with every fiber he said NO!

His dad looked at him and they both stood toe to toe.

Tommy stood strong as his dad raised his fist.

This was his life and wasn’t it supposed to be a gift.

Life’s meaning erased.

And even his favorite pie had a bitter taste.

He started feeling strange but he didn’t want to believe. 

His dad had given him this horrible disease called HIV.

Tommy’s life at this point, he felt like he had no say.

Because the thoughts and feelings he was having surely made him gay.

His father died and he was glad to see him go.

He was a constant reminder of this disease and no one else could know.

This thing had him tossing and turning all through the night.

He was tired and said, Toya, I just don’t have the strength to fight.

Tommy let the years pass him by with each passing day.

The truth was he was scared and let fear lead the way.

He was like a shadow chasing the sun until it disappeared.

Tommy was lost and bound to a zillion little tears.

Strangely his first semester class did a project on children with AIDS.

And he decided to take his life back on that very special day.

As he walked through the hospital children marked by sores.

Babies in small bubbles; his heart was completely torn.

He ran to the bathroom and cried until he hit the floor.

He asked God; please tell me what is all this for?

I don’t do drugs.

I don’t sleep around.

And Tommy didn’t want to be gay.

His dad was just a real sick man that took his innocence away.

For all the children who don’t have a choice.

Tommy decided to take a stand and be the children’s voice.

He stood in front of thousands and said…

My name is Tommy and I have AIDS.

And I’m speaking for all the little people who become victims every day.

His body’s 6 feet under but his spirit’s still alive.

And if you’re reading this then his spirit has survived.

This is Tommy’s way of continuing to be the children’s voice.

This is for all the little people who never had a choice.

 

 

                                                Thank you, Tommy.

28 comments

  1. Latoya, That was truly touching. Poor Tommy suffered so much when he needn’t have. He was loyal to his cruel father and, in some ways, he was more grown up than his own dad. What makes an adult do such a thing especially when he knew what he was doing and the disease he had? I admire you for the work you do. I’m not sure I could be as strong as to cope with what you see/hear every day. What blew me away mostly, though, was your ability to write all of Tommy’s story so cleverly in your poem. I salute you. You are a very inspiring lady. Wow. Thank you for sharing your talent. Chris :)

    1. Please dont fret Tommy is only real in my own mind, but thank you so much for reading it,,,I LOVE IT WHEN MY WRITING IS BELIEVABLE,,,I WROTE THIS 8 YEARS AGO AND I AM STILL IN AWE….TOMMY IS REAL TO ME AND I HOPE HE CAN STAY REAL TO U ALSO.

      1. I’m terribly gullible aren’t I? The thing is that you made that so believable that it blew me away. I wish I could be just as imaginative. I should have learned by now. Ha. Credit where it’s due though as you did a fantastic piece of writing. :)

  2. I was very moved by Tommy’s story. You are doing him an honor by keeping his story alive and also helping others who have and are going through similar situations. That parents and/or adults or those who are older than a child, take advantage and abuse that child is the most soul destroying experience possible. And to add to that, to give their own child AIDS/HIV is beyond reproach. You are a very talented poet and writer and courageous by telling this story in such a beautiful and emotionally strong way. I appreciate you supporting the cause to bring to light the abuse of children. It is something I am unfortunately all too aware of in my own life. Thank you for writing about Tommy. His story will stay in my mind and heart. I will remember Tommy. He was a brave soul. Thank you, Jennifer

    1. O MY, LET ME PUT YOU AT EASE , TOMMY IS NOT REAL HE IS PART OF MY OVERSIZED IMAGINATION, I WROTE THIS FOR AN ORGANIZATION. AT THE TIME I WAS SEEING A LOT OF ABUSE TO CHILDREN ON THE NEWS AND IT WAS CLOSE TO WORLD AIDS DAY SO MY IMAGINATION JUST RAN WITH IT,,,BUT DO KNOW THAT THIS KIND OF THING HAPPENS IN REAL LIFE….TOMMY IS REAL ONLY IN MY OWN MIND AND I SUPPOSE NOW IN YOURS, THANKS FOR READING AND I HOPE U CONTINUE TO BE DISGUSTED AT THIS STORY AND INSPIRED AT THEE TIME…..I HAVE EEN TOLD A TRUE POETS WRITING MU…ST BE BELIEVABLE

      1. I beleived your story because in many places it is more likely to be true then created out of someone’s very vivid imagination. You did a major service to so many people who aren’t able to tell their stories. Reading yours just might help them to open up about their own experiences of abuse. You are an amazing writer. The way you use words is quite powerful. I was moved and could see the horror in Tommy’s story and yes it did feel so real to me. It is better that then to not believe it is real. The last line of your note to me is accurate. If there isn’t any life in your words and the voice you use then there isn’t anything alive in your story. I look forward to reading more of what you have to write. You have the gift. Thank you.

  3. FIRST, I APOLOGIZE FOR THE TYPEO’s, I WAS ON MY PHONE,,,REAL HARD TO SEE,,,HERE IS MY CLAUSE,,,SHHHH, AND DONT TELL ANYONE, I AM SO FAULABLE,,,(: I WAS VERY EXCITED WHEN YOU RESPONDED BACK BECAUSE MY MISSION FOR THIS PIECE IS SOMEONE READS IT AND CAN IDENTIFIE W/ TOMMY AND KNOW THAT THEY ARE NOT ALONE,,,SOME PEOPLE HAVE GOTTEN ANGRY, BELIEVING THEY HAVE BEEN DECIEVED BY THIS PIECE,,,BUT NO NOT REALLY, THEY ONLY HAVE TO CHANGE THE NAME TO MANY, MANY ,MANY OTHERS,,,THIS STORY IS REAL. THANK YOU FOR YOUR ENCOURAGEMENT, I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR A FORUM TO GET COMMENTS AND SOME DIALOUGE,,,YOUR WORDS MOVE ME AND DRIVE ME, I AM GRATEFUL FOR YOUR COMMENTS IT MAKE WHAT I DO SOSOSO WORTH IT!

    1. This was absolutely beautiful and touched my heart. I know he is only as real as we make him, but Tommy is real to me and his story is something I treasure.

    2. This was absolutely beautiful and touched my heart. I know he is only as real as we make him, but Tommy is real to me and his story is something I treasure.

    1. YOUR WELCOME, THE STIRING OF SOULS IS THE REASON I WROTE THIS. OUR CHILDREN ARE BEING TORMENTED IN SO MANY WAYS AND CONFUSED BY THE WORLD,,,ON MOST DAYS WE ARE THE ONLY VOICE THEY HAVE );

  4. Nothing wrong with expressing empathy through voicing interpolation from the collisions of visual, audio, face to face experiences we have everyday with people and life. Our heads need sort through it some how, the abhorrent nature of such offenses and occurrences to youth and children (rather than the denial of what people in the world hide). The problem builds and builds within the person that has suffered, until it gets to the point of overwhelming life, often help is too late, or too little. Reaching out in some way, is better than holding back and not reaching out to help at all. Top writing, Latoya, you captured many of the elements people often deny, unless they have been close to such situations and problems.

  5. this made me teary eyed.., doesn’t even matter if it’s fictional..coz the truth is there are a many “Tommy’s” out there… innocent people inflicted with sickness that they most certainly did not deserve… very touching piece

    1. THANK YOU (: GO TO SOUNDCLOUD.COM AND GET AN ACCOUNT. IT IS SO VERY EASY YOU GET 2 HOURS OF FREE RECORDING. I HAVE RECORDED SO MANY PIECES AND I STILL HAVE TIME LEFT AND I PLAN ON PAYING THE 32 OR 23 DOLLARS AFTER MY TIME IS UP FOR THE YEAR. CAN NOT WAIT TO HEAR YOUR VOICE AND HOW YOU WILL RECORD THAT SEXY PIECE :TOUCH HER,,,,(:

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